I have not been Being the Best ME
Throughout my latter years of high school, I was a religious young man, who felt no need to follow the confinements of average American life. WIthin that, being the best student I can be, and rationalizing my academic faults to feel better. I did not do myself, or anyone who cared about me any favor by doing that. My Father reminded me constantly that even though my grades could not reflect my intelligence, or mental capacity accurately, I still had to make good grades at the end of the day. That gave me a nudge to refocus on my academics, but did I? No. Today, I went onto the Turner productions ( owner of CNN, TBS, TNT, etc) website to look for an internship opportunity, and saw that in order to qualify, I had to be at least a junior in college. Even still, I would have to be sustaining a GPA of around a 3.0; that I do not have either. In a semi-depressive slump, I decided to write this. This here my friends is a calling I have half-consciously been running away from the last 5 years. Writing. I have a blessing, and a suppressed urge to write, and to share my feelings, daily life, and future plans with the general public. One thing has held me back, and I cannot allow it to any longer. Anxiety. Yes, I gave it it’s own paragraph. It should not be around anything that I am doing, nor will I give it anymore shine. I have been fighting this urge for so long, because I felt that it would yield negative things into my life. How could it really, is what I now think to myself. Satan will not prevail. Now, or later. It is time that Elohim begin to truly receive praise, and for people to recieve insight, and help from me, through my gift of writing. Amein. #SN - this whole public epiphany has giving me an extra kick in the rear to better my grades, and added a newfound will for me to be the best student I can be.
